It's hard to make the right decisions as a mother – even when you're as famous as Eva Mendes.

The actress became emotional while appearing on the episode Parenting & You With Dr. Shefali” on Tuesday, October 15, admitted that there was one parenting habit she was desperate to break.

Mendes and his partner have two daughters, Esmeralda Amada (10) and Amada Lee (8). Ryan Gosling, 43, and addressed “yelling” at her children.

“I think one of the hardest patterns for me is screaming. Because I don’t scream when they need me,” Mendes, 50, said on the podcast. “I never say 'shut up.' It's not a “mean” cry, but it doesn't matter. I scream. And I find this shouting so cultural.”

She added: “It's hard for me to get through it and not scream. The rushing and screaming is the hardest part for me.”

Mendes has a Cuban background and growing up she loved her parents, she explained Eva Perez Suarez And Juan Carlos Mendez used “fear” to keep her on track with parenting.

Mendes appeared to choke up as she said that “fear” was something she wanted to avoid teaching her own children.

“I hope that in 20 years I don't look back and say, 'Oh, shoot,' because I really don't want to grow up in fear,” Mendes said. “That's the problem – I'm sorry, I'm getting emotional about this – because it's so unfair to the children. I hope I don’t unknowingly pressure them out of fear the way I was raised.”

Mendes, who took a break from her Hollywood career to raise her and Gosling's daughters, recently opened up about feeling “lost” as her children reached middle childhood.

“I actually didn’t feel lost, I felt very clear,” Mendes continued The Drew Barrymore Show became a mother for the first time in September. “But then I felt lost, if that makes sense. Back then the cliché was: 'Okay, who am I now that the children can survive on their own?'”

She continued: “They're only 8 and 10 years old, but you know what I mean, they don't need me every second. It’s a little different.”

Meanwhile, Gosling admitted in May that he would no longer take on “dark” acting roles, so it would not affect his personal life, including Mendes and their daughters.

“I don't really take on roles that take me to a dark place,” Gosling told the Wall Street Journal at the time. “At this moment I want to try to read the room at home and figure out what will be best for all of us. The decisions I make are made together with Eva and we make them first with our family in mind.”